​How I can relate to this. When I focus on the negative then my life just feels like one trouble after the next. It feels relentless, a never ending stream of issue after issue. Focusing on the negative can lead you down a very dark destructive path. I know I have been there too many times.

I now try to focus on the second part of this scripture “but the Lord delivers him from them all”. No matter what troubles have come I am still here because God has gotten me through them all. God is my strength. God is my comfort. God is my healer. I am far from perfect I have moments of weakness and despair but I choose to remember all the good God has done for us and gotten us through.
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No matter what the trouble you are going through right now or the next one that comes I encourage you to focus on the fact God will get you through it.

Life can throw you some curveballs at times. You have the opportunity to swing at them or not. I think it is better to swing and try to make the best at what you have been given than to wallow in self pity or anger. I am not saying you can’t take time to process what has happened. I am saying not to dwell on it. 

Today, I was at Sam’s Club doing some shopping and pondering somethings that have been going on lately. 

For example, last night I got some lab tests results back that wasn’t what I was expecting. I have been trying so hard to get healthier and to see several of my numbers going in the opposite direction it was quite disheartening. It didn’t make sense. Even with a few days of giving in to comfort food because honestly things have been stressful, the numbers shouldn’t be where they are. I got upset and vented to my hubby when he got home. I looked up some Tai chi videos since my doctor recommend it for exercise. I watched one that showed you some steps. Curtis asked if I was going to do it and I said not right now. About an hour later I was like you know I want to try out that one step. So I tried it out a few times. 

Back to being at the store, I was walking around praying in words and in the spirit trying to get passed the anxiety/oppression I was feeling. I ended up getting a peace come over me that while I can’t do anything about what the numbers say at the moment I can work on making a better change. I have tried meal prepping before but haven’t been successful at sticking to it. If I want to make a change though for the good I need to put more effort into it. I need to seek more the Holy Spirit on what exactly to do that will work for me then stressing out reading a million different things on the internet. The Creator that made me knows me way better than anyone else including myself. 
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I just wanted to encourage you today to not give up God has better plans for you. He will help you and give you the peace you need to get through anything this world throws at you. All you have to do is seek him where you are at physically, mentally, & spiritually. He already knows what’s on your heart. He is also with you every where. It don’t matter if you at church, at the store, or any other place you can name. He is there and is waiting on you to just reach out.

National Suicide Prevention/Awareness
I have shared in the past about my suicide attempts and how I was plagued by suicidal thoughts for over 20 years. By the grace of God, I am a walking-breathing testimony to his mercy.

While having a relationship with God is important, he created us for community. We were designed to help encourage and build each other up in this world that likes to isolate and tear people down. Even if they won’t admit it everyone has tough times in life. It is absolutely okay to reach out to others for help. I never did and I know that was a mistake and added to why I suffered for so long. If you don’t have anyone in your life that you can reach out to there are plenty of free resources you can use I have listed just a few below.

I want to encourage you today that you are not alone. Others including myself have suffered or are suffering. God said he would never leave and forsake us. Even though at the time I didn’t have a relationship with God I know he was there with me.

You can get through this!
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If you feel you are an immediate threat to yourself, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255
Emotional Listening Support Hotline for if you could really use someone to talk to, but aren’t feeling like an immediate threat to yourself: 1-800-932-4616
The Samaritans is an emotional support hotline for any who calls feeling lonely or depressed or just needs someone to talk to: 1-877-870-4673
Crisis Text Line, for if you need someone to talk to, but aren’t comfortable talking on the phone: Text HOME to 741741